I think, most of the people I know in real life, if not everyone, see me as the different, delicate person or the one that you can’t fool, kid or joke around. I think some people see me as a serious person. In fact, I think someone did commented that I’m way too serious. I don’t know but I’m not really like that. I’m actually loud, cheerful, and just err, loud. But I know one thing is for sure and the only reason that they think of me as such – I have put a barrier between me and other people or in other words, I separate myself to the rest of the world.
Yes, I think I’m anti-social and I’m really having problems with it. My boyfriend told me that I tend to separate myself because I’m the one who thinks that I’m different from others. Well, I think it’s kind of true. I think I’m afraid of being rejected and being made fun of. Because of this, I’m always alone.
I really want to change! I want to belong to a group of friends. I want to talk to people, laugh and share things with them! But I don’t know what to do and how to start.